That was my assignment today.
You are to focus on your breath only. For five minutes. Again, doing only that, and not falling asleep.
So I did. In the midst of school and work, this seems to me like a waste of time. Sitting there and just breathing?! But because it was a part of my homework, so I did it anyway, and after all I realize how many things I have missed just because I focus on “checking off my to-do list” rather than “living the moment”. I closed my eyes for five minutes:
- Hmm… I still have too many assignments due today.
- Hmm… I want to have more time to read.
- I will workout everyday this week. My body is exhausted.
- I want to improve my writing and spend more time on coding.
- Why 5 minutes seem so longggg???
My mind wandered everywhere, being buried because of my stresses. However, at the same time I also realized:
- I can do everything in 5 minutes, but I can also do nothing.
So why don’t just sit back and relax. Sit back and have a look at what I have done, rather than being panic about what I have not done YET. Focus on this moment only.
Focus on how many people I have talked to this week that I have never talked to before. Isn’t it true that only when I set my businesses aside, I have time to share with others about my days? Focus on how many places I have always wanted to go to? Isn’t it true that only when I stop thinking about my school, work, and extracurricular activities that I have time to go? So what is the purpose of worrying, of not living this moment?
The sun is up there, even though it is cold, but it is a great day. A great day because I woke up early to see sunrise, because I went to the gym and ran half an hour, because I called my parents after a long busy week, and because I focus on my breath instead of following my crazy mind.
It is this moment that I should praise the Lord for giving me another breath-in second, for letting me living this life.